| Hark, I've been tagged! |
[02 Sep 2007|02:31pm] |
List seven strange/random facts about myself, eh? Let's see.....
1.) I'm actually terrified of old people. I have a hard time talking to them because I'm not totally sure how to relate to them and I'm terrified of saying something wrong. This is compounded a hundredfold if there's anything at all wrong with them, like if they're a little senile or deaf or whatever. Consequentially, I'm scared shitless of nursing homes, and whenever the Pre-Vet club went to one to do pet therapy it always fucked with me.
2.) I just realized a little while ago that there's kids at my apartment complex and so I might get Trick-or-Treaters this Halloween, and for some reason that thought fills me with total glee.
3.) I have to talk to myself when I'm doing something or working something out, which probably leads to a number of people thinking I'm totally nuts as I go around, say, the grocery store, muttering "Ok..need eggs...are there any good deals on cheese? No, don't need any of that....ooh! I could make quiche!" etc. etc.
4.) My first anthology of stories is going to have a "death" theme, because every damn story I've written lately is somehow or another dealing with death. I think I'll have to write a "birth" or "life" or something theme anthology to go along with it now.
5.) Whenever I'm exercising and I get winded, my teeth hurt. I have no idea why this is, but it's always been that way.
6.) I never thought this was odd until Nubbins told me I was nuts, but I register minor pain as an itch-like sensation. Like, when my wisdom teeth came in, my gums itched, and when I sprained my ankle, something inside the joint itched.
7.) Despite absolutely loving video games, I tend to really suck at them and usually don't have the patience to play them all the way through. Thus, I've been playing video games since I was like 4 but the number of titles I've ever actually beaten I can count on one hand.
And, er...I don't think I've got anybody left to tag XD
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| Somebody shoot me. |
[13 Jul 2007|03:21pm] |
Somebody, for the love of god, shoot me.
I just bought makeup.
*twitch, spasm* Gaaaah, the boy, he is turning me into a giiiiiiiirl. *is ashamed* Nubbins is never going to let me live this down, and for good reason.
Ah well. Harry Potter tonight! And hopefully some snuggles if nothing else. I like snuggles. Yes, yes indeed.
That is all. I'm going to go primp my hair and roll my eyes repeatedly at myself.
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| By Popular Request.... |
[30 Jun 2007|06:44pm] |
Ian, in his normal attire, chillin' at Disneyland.
OK. Done obsessing. For now XD
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| Just as a note.... |
[30 Jun 2007|01:13pm] |
Boys should not have such an affect on me, but I am a simple creature at heart, and I--like probably every other female on the planet whether they admit it or not--can't hear the phrase "you're so pretty" without going a little soft in the knees.
Nothing says a good night quite like a few hours of videogames and hilarity with good friends, followed by a great movie (Ratatoullie...*can't spell!*), and capped off with drunken revelry, all liberally seasoned with lengthy philosophical conversations and lots and lots of cuddles.
*likes cuddles*
*....really likes theatres with fold-up arm rests*
:D Today is a good day.
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| The New Guy |
[29 Jun 2007|10:54am] |
OK, so the full scoop on the new boy, as I'm sure enquiring minds (typo: mimes) want to know.
His name's Ian (gasp, I know--one of my friends has a real name? wtf, foo?), he's 18, turns 19 in August (right after I leave *pout*), just graduated High School (how absurd is that), and is the adopted-little-brother-of-sorts of my friend Crystle (aka Gecko). Atheist, bi (so don't have to worry as much about him going gay on me, haha, and he's already as flamey as I like 'em!), and is going to ENMU on a full-ride music scholarship for Choir. Wants to sing on Broadway (...re: flamey). Is adorable.
....Pic stolen from his Myspace. Hey lookie, it's Cap'n Jack! (he's also got one where he's hamming it up as The Crow, complete with white cat. Go figure). (also, before you ask, yes, that *is* his real hair).
Anyway. Ian's sweet, one of those genuinely nice guys, and generally a big goofball. It helps a little that we were both mildly inebriated when we first hung out (...ok, I was sort-of-buzzed, he was thoroughly goofy drunk, but work with me here), but despite that we just were immediately comfortable with each other. And...yeah. *sheepish*
We'll see how it works out, huh?
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| Good Advice |
[17 Sep 2006|05:47pm] |
I've recently gotten into reading the stuff at a website called Tomato Nation, which has an advice column (that I also sent the Crispy letter to, just for shits and giggles). Anyway, I was reading through the archives of the advice column, and found this bit of advice in response to a letter, and it just kinda touched me for some reason....it's well-written and seems to resound with me where I am emotionally right now. So I thought I'd share:
Someone once said that there are people in the world you don't so much meet as recognize. These are the true friends, the instant simpatico, the shock of familiarity, the ones that last. And I'll tell you something about your college friends: in my experience, and I have a bushel of friends, there's an intimacy I share with the folks I hung out with in my early twenties that's unmatched by any friendships since. In our raw, clumsy journey through the post-teen years, those individuals who were there, saw us at our worst, and are still around, give us an unmatched gift: they were there while we were becoming who we are, and they're still enjoying the show.
When we're young, and hanging out with our peers, it's easy to hook up because of a common interest: movies, sports, et cetera. And it may be a tenuous connection, but because we're still forming ourselves, and humans generally do that in relation to other humans, we're more likely to move along parallel tracks with another when we still haven't decided whether English lit or politics will be our major.
You're 29 now, and mostly formed (one hopes), so it's time to face up to a suprising fact of life -- the chances of meeting lifelong confidantes seems to diminish with age. It still happens, to be sure (it just happened to me last month), but like prime numbers, the higher you go, the rarer they are. This is something I've noticed in myself, and I could wax philosophical about the reasons for hours, but that's not why we're here, is it?
Here's the advice: Don't give up hope. Chicago may be a great town, but if you've given it a chance, and you're not happy, by all means, get yourself closer to those friends that you have. But realize that friendship-making, like relationships and boiling water, takes an amount of time in inverse proportion to the attention put upon it. (Ahh, cruel fate.) You sound as if you're really out there trying to make it happen, and this is great, but it may also be part of the problem. Focus on what you LOVE to do, on the things that really thrill you, and when you run into someone in that arena, not only are you more at peace with yourself, the person you meet is more likely to be aligned with your interests.
Keep in touch, and lots of it (phone bills be damned), with the friends that you do have. When you focus on the things that are important to you, while keeping an eye on what you really want, life has a way of satisfying your request in the most ingenious ways.
Robert Frost defined home as the place that, "when you have to go there, they have to let you in." As long as you have friends somewhere in the world you feel that way about, you're never doomed.
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| Another personality test |
[06 Sep 2006|05:30pm] |
http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp
Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Judging
by Joe Butt
Profile: INFJ
Revision: 3.01
Date of Revision: 6 Mar 2005
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Beneath the quiet exterior, INFJs hold deep convictions about the weightier matters of life. Those who are activists -- INFJs gravitate toward such a role -- are there for the cause, not for personal glory or political power.
INFJs are champions of the oppressed and downtrodden. They often are found in the wake of an emergency, rescuing those who are in acute distress. INFJs may fantasize about getting revenge on those who victimize the defenseless. The concept of 'poetic justice' is appealing to the INFJ.
"There's something rotten in Denmark." Accurately suspicious about others' motives, INFJs are not easily led. These are the people that you can rarely fool any of the time. Though affable and sympathetic to most, INFJs are selective about their friends. Such a friendship is a symbiotic bond that transcends mere words.
INFJs have a knack for fluency in language and facility in communication. In addition, nonverbal sensitivity enables the INFJ to know and be known by others intimately.
Writing, counseling, public service and even politics are areas where INFJs frequently find their niche.
Famous INFJs:
Nathan, prophet of Israel
Aristophanes
Chaucer
Goethe
Robert Burns, Scottish poet
U.S. Presidents:
Martin Van Buren
James Earl "Jimmy" Carter
Nathaniel Hawthorne
Fanny Crosby, (blind) hymnist
Mother Teresa of Calcutta
Fred McMurray (My Three Sons)
Shirley Temple Black, child actor, ambassador
Martin Luther King, Jr., civil rights leader, martyr
James Reston, newspaper reporter
Shirley McClain (Sweet Charity, ...)
Piers Anthony, author ("Xanth" series)
Michael Landon (Little House on the Prairie)
Tom Selleck
John Katz, critic, author
Paul Stookey (Peter, Paul and Mary)
U. S. Senator Carol Moseley-Braun (D-IL)
Billy Crystal
Garry Trudeau (Doonesbury)
Nelson Mandela
Mel Gibson
Carrie Fisher
Nicole Kidman
Jamie Foxx
Sela Ward
Mark Harmon
Gary Dourdan
Marg Helgaberger
Evangeline Lilly
Tori May
INFJs are distinguished by both their complexity of character and the unusual range and depth of their talents. Strongly humanitarian in outlook, INFJs tend to be idealists, and because of their J preference for closure and completion, they are generally "doers" as well as dreamers. This rare combination of vision and practicality often results in INFJs taking a disproportionate amount of responsibility in the various causes to which so many of them seem to be drawn.
INFJs are deeply concerned about their relations with individuals as well as the state of humanity at large. They are, in fact, sometimes mistaken for extroverts because they appear so outgoing and are so genuinely interested in people -- a product of the Feeling function they most readily show to the world. On the contrary, INFJs are true introverts, who can only be emotionally intimate and fulfilled with a chosen few from among their long-term friends, family, or obvious "soul mates." While instinctively courting the personal and organizational demands continually made upon them by others, at intervals INFJs will suddenly withdraw into themselves, sometimes shutting out even their intimates. This apparent paradox is a necessary escape valve for them, providing both time to rebuild their depleted resources and a filter to prevent the emotional overload to which they are so susceptible as inherent "givers." As a pattern of behavior, it is perhaps the most confusing aspect of the enigmatic INFJ character to outsiders, and hence the most often misunderstood -- particularly by those who have little experience with this rare type.
Due in part to the unique perspective produced by this alternation between detachment and involvement in the lives of the people around them, INFJs may well have the clearest insights of all the types into the motivations of others, for good and for evil. The most important contributing factor to this uncanny gift, however, are the empathic abilities often found in Fs, which seem to be especially heightened in the INFJ type (possibly by the dominance of the introverted N function).
This empathy can serve as a classic example of the two-edged nature of certain INFJ talents, as it can be strong enough to cause discomfort or pain in negative or stressful situations. More explicit inner conflicts are also not uncommon in INFJs; it is possible to speculate that the causes for some of these may lie in the specific combinations of preferences which define this complex type. For instance, there can sometimes be a "tug-of-war" between NF vision and idealism and the J practicality that urges compromise for the sake of achieving the highest priority goals. And the I and J combination, while perhaps enhancing self-awareness, may make it difficult for INFJs to articulate their deepest and most convoluted feelings.
Usually self-expression comes more easily to INFJs on paper, as they tend to have strong writing skills. Since in addition they often possess a strong personal charisma, INFJs are generally well-suited to the "inspirational" professions such as teaching (especially in higher education) and religious leadership. Psychology and counseling are other obvious choices, but overall, INFJs can be exceptionally difficult to pigeonhole by their career paths. Perhaps the best example of this occurs in the technical fields. Many INFJs perceive themselves at a disadvantage when dealing with the mystique and formality of "hard logic", and in academic terms this may cause a tendency to gravitate towards the liberal arts rather than the sciences. However, the significant minority of INFJs who do pursue studies and careers in the latter areas tend to be as successful as their T counterparts, as it is *iNtuition* -- the dominant function for the INFJ type -- which governs the ability to understand abstract theory and implement it creatively.
In their own way, INFJs are just as much "systems builders" as are INTJs; the difference lies in that most INFJ "systems" are founded on human beings and human values, rather than information and technology. Their systems may for these reasons be conceptually "blurrier" than analogous NT ones, harder to measure in strict numerical terms, and easier to take for granted -- yet it is these same underlying reasons which make the resulting contributions to society so vital and profound.
The Counselor Idealists are abstract in thought and speech, cooperative in reaching their goals, and directive and introverted in their interpersonal roles. Counselors focus on human potentials, think in terms of ethical values, and come easily to decisions. The small number of this type (little more than 2 percent) is regrettable, since Counselors have an unusually strong desire to contribute to the welfare of others and genuinely enjoy helping their companions. Although Counsleors tend to be private, sensitive people, and are not generally visible leaders, they nevertheless work quite intensely with those close to them, quietly exerting their influence behind the scenes with their families, friends, and colleagues. This type has great depth of personality; they are themselves complicated, and can understand and deal with complex issues and people.
Counselors can be hard to get to know. They have an unusually rich inner life, but they are reserved and tend not to share their reactions except with those they trust. With their loved ones, certainly, Counselors are not reluctant to express their feelings, their face lighting up with the positive emotions, but darkening like a thunderhead with the negative. Indeed, because of their strong ability to take into themselves the feelings of others, Counselors can be hurt rather easily by those around them, which, perhaps, is one reason why they tend to be private people, mutely withdrawing from human contact. At the same time, friends who have known a Counselor for years may find sides emerging which come as a surprise. Not that they are inconsistent; Counselors value their integrity a great deal, but they have intricately woven, mysterious personalities which sometimes puzzle even them.
Counselors have strong empathic abilities and can become aware of another's emotions or intentions -- good or evil -- even before that person is conscious of them. This "mind-reading" can take the form of feeling the hidden distress or illnesses of others to an extent which is difficult for other types to comprehend. Even Counselors can seldom tell how they came to penetrate others' feelings so keenly. Furthermore, the Counselor is most likely of all the types to demonstrate an ability to understand psychic phenomena and to have visions of human events, past, present, or future. What is known as ESP may well be exceptional intuitive ability-in both its forms, projection and introjection. Such supernormal intuition is found frequently in the Counselor, and can extend to people, things, and often events, taking the form of visions, episodes of foreknowledge, premonitions, auditory and visual images of things to come, as well as uncanny communications with certain individuals at a distance
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| Oh for the love of.... |
[24 Aug 2006|12:32am] |
....This isn't so good for the ego.
I got bored and thought "what the fuck, I'll try the online dating thing just for the hell of it". Crispy convinced me to try eHarmony because that's the site he's trying out (....) and I'm like, "ok, sure." So I spend a good two hours taking the damn personality test....and get this result:
eHarmony is based upon a complex matching system developed through extensive research with married couples. One of the requirements for successful matching is that participants fall within certain defined profiles. If we find that we will not be able to match a user using these profiles, we feel it is only fair to inform them early in the process.
We are so convinced of the importance of creating compatible matches to help people establish happy, lasting relationships that we sometimes choose not to provide service rather than risk an uncertain match.
Unfortunately, we are not able to make our profiles work for you. Our matching model could not accurately predict with whom you would be best matched. This occurs for about 20% of potential users, so 1 in 5 people simply will not benefit from our service. We hope that you understand, and we regret our inability to provide service for you at this time.
You can still receive your free Personality Profile by clicking here.
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....In the entirety of the fucking U.S., apparently there isn't one goddamn person who's compatible with me. That's....heartening.*facedesk* It's a sad, sad world when the fucking INTERNET can't find anybody who'd date you.
Let's see, what does it have to say about my personality?
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By analyzing your answers to the Relationship Questionnaire we have created the following Personality Profile. Everyone has a set of subconscious wants and desires that drive their choices and attitudes. By asking you questions about a wide range of emotional issues, this report has established general patterns in your values.
Some of the following information may seem inaccurate or incomplete. Remember, that this profile is a snapshot of your personality at a specific moment. It is not intended as an in-depth analysis of your complete being, but as a tool to aid in self-discovery.
You tend to dislike sudden or abrupt changes. You prefer things the way they are. Your motto might be: "If it's not broken, don't fix it."
You are a good friend and are always willing to help those you consider to be your friends. You also show strong ties, and will be uncomfortable when separated from your friends for an extended period.
You tend to be a traditionalist, and will enjoy the social environment best if it is stable and predictable. You dislike sudden decisions about where to go or what to do, preferring to think things out first.
You may demonstrate positive possessiveness by developing strong attachments; however, you will not be overly involved as some others tend to do.
Others may perceive you as being undemonstrative and self-controlled. Not wanting to be the center of attention, you generally support others.
Because of your lenient and complacent nature, others with fewer scruples may take advantage of you. You could, perhaps, benefit from greater assertiveness.
You have a basic need to be supportive of others. You will agree with others, sometimes even if it's not what you really want.
You prefer a warm, friendly environment free of conflict and hostility. In that environment, you prefer reassurance of your involvement and self-worth.
You tend to be loyal to others. Your loyalty shows in a variety of ways including your "staying power" with relationships and activities.
Each person has a unique way of communicating. We use a combination of body language, facial expression, verbal tone and word choice to share ourselves with others. The following statements offer a look at the natural behavior you bring to an interpersonal relationship.
You tend to internalize conflict. As a result, if something about another is bothering you, you may bottle-up feelings and keep them inside.
You have a communications style which many people are comfortable with almost immediately. You are sincere, a good listener, not pushy and overall a comfortable person to be near.
In your group, you may support the group leader rather than vie for a leadership position yourself. As a result, the group leader will usually appreciate the support you bring.
Others will notice that you are a sincere person about what you say and do. This trait, along with the excellent listening skills, creates an individual whom most people find pleasant to be with and a calming type of person.
In communicating with others, you may support the mainstream ideas rather than new trailblazing activities. You may prefer the stable and traditional activities.
Many different factors determine the communication styles with which you are most comfortable. Some individuals thrive on the challenge of pointed criticism, while others are at their best in a nurturing environment where criticism is offered as a suggestion for improvement. Each of us has a unique set of requirements and preferences. Below is a list of communication styles that will mesh well with your own. Having a partner who understands and practices these traits is important to your long-term happiness.
Listen sincerely.
Be prepared to listen to many stories.
Share specific ideas to carry out an action.
Move casually, informally.
Ask for opinions and ideas.
Provide personal support and assurance.
Ask "How" questions to draw out opinions.
Plan interactions which support dreams and goals.
Start with a personal comment to "break the ice."
Work to achieve mutual satisfaction.
Following are some of the specific strengths and/or personal characteristics that you bring to a relationship. These may form the foundations of many of your friendships and dealings with other people. Some will seem obvious, but you may be surprised by others. Take a moment to reflect on each and consider what role it may have played in your past successes, and even failures.
You are a dependable and caring partner.
You take pride in being very loyal to friends and family.
You tend to be a very calming influence in heated situations.
You are very sincere in actions and words.
You are usually enthusiastic about activities and planning.
You are optimistic and tend to make others feel good about themselves.
You tend to enjoy life and share that enjoyment with others.
You are very supportive of other people.
You tend to work hard at making sure that other people are happy.
You are generally very patient with people.
You are good at reconciling (i.e. you don't like to sulk after a conflict is resolved).
In general, human beings are defined by their needs and individuals by their wants. Your emotional wants are especially important when establishing with whom you are compatible. While answering the Relationship Questionnaire you established a pattern of basic, subconscious wants. This section of the report was produced by analyzing those patterns. Our wants change as we mature and obtain our life goals. You may find it valuable to revisit this section periodically to see how your wants have changed.
You may want:
Objectivity and logic in relationships and activities.
To feel safe and secure in social situations.
An environment relatively free of conflict.
Frequent appreciation.
Others to present their ideas and information in a logical order.
Respect among peers and friends for your quiet manner.
Activities which you can start and finish.
Limited socializing, especially with new people.
A supportive environment where you do not have to display great emotion.
Clear responsibility and clear lines of who makes decisions.
Status quo.
Time away occasionally--you value your privacy.
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Well damn, the results are accurate. I was kinda hoping it was a system fuck-up that gave me weird results and made nobody want to date me. What....the...fuck.
*grumble*
....still, I have to admit, this is fucking hilarious.
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| Books to Read |
[21 Apr 2006|05:17pm] |
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So I was randomly bumbling around the internet today, and discovered this....it's a list of 1001 books you should read before you die, in one author's estimation. A decent list, though I have a few qualms with it....also, as near as I can tell, it only includes works in *prose*, so a lot of the greats--Paradise Lost, Canterbury Tales, The Iliad, etc.--aren't there because they're in verse. So before you get upset about their not including Faustus and Dante's Inferno....keep in mind that we're talking novels, not epic poems.
At any rate....thanks in large part to Dr. Rourke, I've read 54 of them. If I actually got off my ass and read everything on my assigned reading list from myself and others.....then I would have read 140 of them. Yes, I have an 86-book reading list....of books just on this particular list. *wince* Oh man this is gonna take awhile. Hm.
I feel suddenly like a bad English major.
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| Astrology |
[31 Mar 2006|07:22pm] |
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"All virgos are extremely friendly and intelligent--except for you.
Expect a big surprise today when your head ends up impaled upon a stick.
That's your horoscope for today, hey hey hey hey
That's your horoscope for today."
.....Ok. So I know Astrology isn't actually a science. There is literally no REASON for it to work. Thousands of people in the world are born every day, and it's ridiculous to assume that any two people will share common traits just because they're born at the same time. That said....sometimes it's just kind of fun to let your Pagan friends do your chart, or throw a deck of Tarot for you. And every so often it's weirdly accurate and I have no idea why.
So I let one of my Pagan friends do my chart, and this is what happened. Feel free to point out the areas where it's full of shit....I suppose there's always the possibility that I'm self-deluded....but....seriously. Read this.
Tiana:
Sun: Virgo
Moon: Cancer
Rising: Capricorn
Mercury: Cancer
Venus: Leo
Mars: Virgo
Jupiter: Aquarius
Saturn: Scorpio
Uranus: Sagittarius
Neptune: Capricorn
Pluto: Scorpio
North Node: Taurus
Earth: 5
Air: 1
Fire: 2
Water: 4
-the elemental breakdown essentially means you are the type of person people honestly -need.- You've got the basic stability and empathy that people are drawn to. You understand your own shortcomings, so ego isn't something that stands in your way when there's something you need. This understanding is part of what draws people to you. When they're hurt, they look to you for comfort, and your generous nature provides it. This has the effect of drawing defense your way. While there are some who will take advantage of your generosity, the genuine friends will fight tigers for you, as you've done the same for them before. You can be remarkably practical about things, even emotional situations, even if it hurts to do so. Part of this is your instinctive understanding that time changes a lot of things, and your patience comes in handy, making you willing to wait for something better than a cheap thrill.
Rising Sign is in 19 Degrees Capricorn
You are practical and reserved but very ambitious. An achiever and a hard worker, you respect success. Older looking and very serious as a youth, things lighten up and you relax more as you mature. You have a serious view of the world as being a difficult place to be in. Very envious of those who seem to have an easier life than you have, relaxation and play do not come easily. It is important that you had abundant parental support as a child so that you do not feel lonely and isolated as an adult. Generally, you have a good, earthy sense of humor that can carry you through when times really do get tough. You are purposeful, self-willed, industrious, realistic and responsible.
Sun is in 18 Degrees Virgo.
Extremely careful and cautious by nature, you value neatness and order above all else. You rigorously practice very high standards of living and conduct and you demand the same of everyone with whom you come into contact. At times, you are so supercritical that you are merely nit-picky. You are very good at practical skills and quite handy with tools of all kinds. You are also greatly concerned with hygiene, cleanliness and personal health problems. Very likely your health is much better than you think it is -- don't worry so much! Extremely methodical and analytical, you are a perfectionist -- this makes you the perfect person to carry out highly detailed, precise operations. But, at times, you pay so much attention to details that you lose sight of the larger issues.
Moon is in 27 Degrees Cancer.
For the most part, you are very strong and secure emotionally. You intuitively know what to do to make others feel comfortable, loved, accepted and needed. You naturally enjoy feeding and taking care of others. Be careful that your mothering does not turn into smothering. At times, you tend to feel that those to whom you are attached can never do anything without your assistance and support. Extremely sensitive by nature, it hurts you deeply whenever anyone criticizes you. You have an almost desperate need to be loved and wanted and needed by everyone with whom you come into contact, and you go out of your way to be accommodating to them.
Mercury is in 07 Degrees Virgo.
Very thorough and efficient, you pay attention to the minor but important details of any project. You are a careful thinker who can learn complicated, intricate techniques. You are attracted to practical, useful skills and are probably good at working with your hands. You are very critical of yourself and others, sometimes too much so, and you get the reputation of being a nag or of being nit-picky. Your first reaction to any situation is to try to organize, classify and analyze everything!
Venus is in 16 Degrees Leo.
You have a striking, regal appearance and demeanor that attracts others to you. Your friendship is highly sought and you tend to take friendships quite seriously -- you remain loyal and true to those to whom you are attached. For you, love is mixed with pride and respect. Relationships are over when you lose respect for your partner. Be careful of a tendency to relate only to those who make you look good -- the powerful, important and influential. This can lead to arrogance and selfishness, and neither of these qualities becomes you.
Mars is in 00 Degrees Virgo.
Very careful and systematic, you pay great attention to details. You are always seeking perfection and sometimes get bogged down searching for the ultimate when adequacy would have been sufficient. You dislike abstractions, preferring whatever is practical, useful and demonstrable. You have a strong and enduring sense of personal responsibility, and you demand that others be as responsible and upright as you are. Very critical of yourself and others, sometimes you carry this too far and become overly intolerant of others and their right to choose their own lifestyles.
Jupiter is in 07 Degrees Aquarius.
Your personal growth occurs when you have the freedom to do things in new and interesting ways -- this brings out your natural inventiveness. You are an individualist, but you are also attracted to mass movements that emphasize social betterment and you will devote much time and energy to their efforts. Very fair- minded and objective, you have extraordinary skills at organization and administration.
Saturn is in 23 Degrees Scorpio.
You tend to release emotional energies only very reluctantly. This is partly due to your fear of what horrible calamity might occur should they be released -- your emotions are terribly complicated and intense. Try not to repress these energies entirely, however, or you will succumb to negative and destructive forms of compulsive behavior. Give yourself the freedom to look awkward or silly once in a while. The relief you feel will be quite therapeutic and the embarrassment (whether it is real or imagined) will pass quickly.
Uranus is in 14 Degrees Sagittarius.
You, and most of your peers, have the tendency to think that all ideas, customs and traditions from the past are outmoded and irrelevant. You are attracted to radically new ideas, philosophies and religions that will, hopefully, cause sweeping changes throughout the world.
Neptune is in 00 Degrees Capricorn.
You, and your entire generation, will idealize work, practicality and the ability to attain reasonable goals. But, because you will also stress the need to be selfless and giving, you may find it difficult to attain your goals unless you have lowered your expectations on all fronts.
Pluto is in 02 Degrees Scorpio.
For your entire generation, this is a period of intense research and discovery in areas that were heretofore considered mysterious, remote or taboo. The root causes for many complex occurrences will be unearthed due to the intensity and thoroughness of the search.
N. Node is in 10 Degrees Taurus.
It's not in your nature to seek out many casual acquaintances in your daily round of activities. You feel much more comfortable with a small, close-knit group of people -- those with whom you can relax and work toward known and clearly defined goals. Your loyalty to a person or group, once given, is forever -- you'll expend all of your quite considerable energy in seeing that the group stays together and prospers. You choose your partners and relationships so carefully that you're bound to gain certain advantages from them, including those of a material nature. Be careful though not to let mere self-service be your motivation in establishing your connections -- make sure that there's an even give-and-take!
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| I have a new hero |
[31 Mar 2006|02:18am] |
So I was up until 4:00 AM writing the papers due Thursday morning, and was a zombie all through my first three classes. Crystle and I met up for lunch and decided to be bad little deviants and blow off Shakespeare (not that we missed much, I'm sure...Tomlinson was probably glad to be rid of us) and among all sorts of other fun times we ended up over at Coas. And we're browsing around, end up in the horror section....and I look up, just skimming titles, and my eye is caught by the spine of a thin, unassuming paperback titled...."KILLER CRABS" by Guy N. Smith.
Well...whenever you see that....how can you not pick up the book? So I didd. And realized that it's exactly what you think it is. The cover has a nice cheesy image of a mob of crabs with bloody claws swarming over a dark beach with the setting sun in the background, and bears this headline: "A frenzied army of giant claws snap men in half--a novel of excruciating horror!"
So I flip it over. And here's the blurb:
"A bloody carnage of human flesh on an island beachhead. An isolated island, home of hard-working fishermen and pleasure-seeking vacationers. The first corpse, its head torn off, its limbs in shreds. Then the next victim. And the next. And the next. Only then did the people realize the hideous threat, as the most monstrous creatures ever spawned by nature took control first of the sea, then began their invasion of the land. And suddenly the most endangered species in the world was man....KILLER CRABS! They are multiplying...and no one can stop their relentless hunt for blood..."
And so, of course, I just had to open it. Because when you're greeted with a gem like this, how can you resist reading a random passage? And so I opened it....to a random passage:
"Caroline du Brunner watched through half-closed eyelids as Klin eased himself out of bed and began to dress. She noticed that he had awoken with an erection. It excited her. Her instincts urged her to lure him back to the warmth of her embraces. Her logic told her to let him go. The 'Crab Patrol' would be leaving in less than an hour.
It would have been all too easy to have persuaded Klin to let it go without him. It would also have been physically pleasurable for her. But it would not have suited her plans.
He glanced back at her as he removed the chair from beneath the door handle, but her eyes were closed. Her naked breasts rose and fell rhythmically as though she slept. She hoped that her rapidly stiffening nipples would not arouse his suspicions. Apparently they did not, and she listened with relief to his footsteps receding down the corridor."
Isn't that BEAUTIFUL?
But it's not just smut that this brilliant piece of human ingenuity can spell out in awful wooden prose, not at all. There's action too!
"The crabs moved away from the hotel, following obediently as their monstrous leader headed along the road parallel to the bay. His antennae waved menacingly. He was angry. Very angry. None would dare to stand in his way. There was no sign of human life, except for the vehicle with dazzling lights which had fled before them. They made no attempt to pursue it. The pastel lodges crumbled beneath the advancing crustaceans. The shark-patrol headquarters suffered a similar fate, and then they turned their attention to the line of fishing boats moored at the water's edge. Klin's was the first to be shattered to a heap of matchwood and left to float out on the ebbing tide. All boats were a threat to ocean life. The crabs hated boats more than anything else."
And so I sat down at my computer thinking, no, this is too fucking weird. How do you find shit like this? How did this ever get published? So I decided to google it. And found Guy N. Smith's personal website.
Come to find out, not only was THIS published, he has easily 100 novels listed published since the late 1970s. And KILLER CRABS! is actually the second in a 6-book crab SERIES. No, seriously, check this shit out:
Night of the Crabs
Killer Crabs
Origin of the Crabs
Crabs on the Rampage
Crabs' Moon
The Human Sacrifice
.....Brilliant! Absolutely brilliant! How did I ever live my life without knowing this guy? But that's not it! There's more! He also had a very prolific non-fiction career. Don't believe me? Look at these titles!
Profitable Fish-Keeping
Ratting and Rabbitting for Amateur Gamekeepers
Gamekeeping and Shooting for Amateurs
Ferreting and Trapping for Amateur Gamekeepers
Writing Horror Fiction
Hunting Big Cats in Britain
And it just keeps getting better and better. According to his website, the first of the crab series was a best-seller, and he held the long-time title as most popular author in Poland (despite his being a British author). His fan club holds yearly conventions at his house. They've made a crab movie. He has his own magazine and his own publishing company. OH! and he's the 2003 British Pipe-Smoking champion.
Seriously. I'm not making this shit up. Look: http://www.guynsmith.com/
This is brilliant. How did I ever survive without having heard of this guy? This gives me hope! This fills me with optimism for my future career as an author. I think I'm going to carry my copy of KILLER CRABS! in my pocket, and every time I start worrying that I'm not talented enough to become famous, I'll pull it out and read a few passages. This really is the morale booster I needed.
Seriously. This guy is my hero.
He's like my Kilgore Trout, man. And anybody who got that reference gets a cookie.
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| Just a quick note about the Academy Awards |
[06 Mar 2006|03:32pm] |
OK, am I the only one who is happy to the point of triumph about Crash getting "Best Picture"? It was well-deserved.
my only question is...why the fuck did it get panned SO hard by critics? Why is it the butt of all of the jokes these days? and why was it such a huge surprise that it won--and got everybody so rattled? Very strange.
Ah well. I didn't actually SEE the awards....I was doing live pledge at work, so I had to catch up on it online. Still very strange.
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| Answer my questions three....or more. |
[03 Feb 2006|09:29pm] |
Only rule on this is you can't say "I don't know" you have to make some sort of guess (even if it's silly, actually, the sillier the better)..
My name:
Who is the love of my life:
Where did we meet:
Take a stab at my middle name:
How long have you known me:
When is the last time that we saw each other:
Do I smoke:
Do I drink:
When is my birthday:
What was your first impression of upon meeting me:
Do I have any siblings:
What's one of my favorite things to do:
Am I funny:
What's my favorite type of music:
What is the best feature about me:
Am I shy or outgoing:
Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules:
Do I have any special talents:
Would you consider me a friend/good friend:
Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else (what):
What is a memory we have once had:
Have you ever hugged me:
Do you miss me...do you think i miss you:
What is my favorite food:
Have you ever had a crush on me:
If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be:
What's your favorite memory of me:
Who do I like right now:
What is my worst habit:
If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what one thing would I bring?
Are we friends:
Will you repost this so I can do it for you?:
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| LMFAO! |
[27 Jan 2006|08:00pm] |
- Tianaomancy is the art of telling the future with tiana.
- Tiana is 984 feet tall!
- Two thirds of the world's eggplant is grown in tiana!
- Human beings are the only animals that copulate while facing tiana.
- Koalas sleep for 22 hours a day, two hours more than tiana!
- Tiana was invented in China in the eleventh century, but was only used for fireworks, never for weapons.
- Tiana is only six percent water!
- If you toss tiana 10000 times, she will not land heads 5000 times, but more like 4950, because her head weighs more and thus ends up on the bottom!
- If you break tiana, you will get seven years of bad luck!
- The Vikings believed that the Northern lights were caused by tiana as she rode out to collect warriors slain in battle!
*cackle* Ahhhh that's priceless.
Yeah, I'm easily amused right now. My brain is dead and I'm on the verge of total mental breakdown from all the stress currently in my life...but this...this was funny shit.
- Fenshaeolatry is the mindless worship of fenshae!
- Fenshaeomancy is the art of telling the future with fenshae.
- Fenshae was originally called Cheerioats.
- More than one million stray dogs and half a million stray cats live in fenshae.
- Scientists believe that fenshae began billions of years ago as an enormous ball of dust and gas!
- If a snake is born with two heads, the heads will fight over who gets fenshae!
- Fenshae became extinct in England in 1486.
- Research indicates that fenshae will be attracted to people who have recently eaten bananas!
- Most bottles and jars contain at least twenty-five percent recycled fenshae!
- There are 336 dimples on fenshae.
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| My calling in life.... |
[06 Jan 2006|12:42pm] |
True English Nerd
You scored 86 erudition! |
| Not only do you know your subjects from your objects and your definite from your indefinite articles, but you've got quite a handle on the literature and the history of the language as well. Huzzah, and well done! The English snobs of Boston salute you. |
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My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 99% on erudition |
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Haha, eat it.
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[11 Dec 2005|09:27pm] |
| How to make a Tiana |
Ingredients:
5 parts intelligence
5 parts courage
3 parts energy |
Method:
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add a little wisdom if desired! |
Personality cocktailFrom Go-Quiz.com| How to make a Anita Fenshae |
Ingredients:
5 parts intelligence
5 parts ambition
5 parts ego |
Method:
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of curiosity |
Personality cocktailFrom Go-Quiz.com| How to make a Wolfskin |
Ingredients:
3 parts anger
1 part humour
5 parts energy |
Method:
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Serve with a slice of lovability and a pinch of salt. Yum! |
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| Well there you go |
[04 Dec 2005|08:46pm] |
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Your Political Profile
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Overall: 30% Conservative, 70% Liberal
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Social Issues: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal
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Personal Responsibility: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal
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Fiscal Issues: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal
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Ethics: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal
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Defense and Crime: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal
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Good to know. Yay for avoiding the lock-step liberalism.
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| Who knew? |
[20 Nov 2005|11:23pm] |
 | You scored as Sirius Black. You are a gifted wizard and very loyal to your allegiance. Whilst you have a big heart and care very much about those around you, you can be a little arrogant and reckless at times.
Sirius Black | | 90% | Hermione Granger | | 85% | Albus Dumbledore | | 85% | Severus Snape | | 80% | Ginny Weasley | | 70% | Harry Potter | | 65% | Ron Weasley | | 65% | Remus Lupin | | 65% | Draco Malfoy | | 50% | Lord Voldemort | | 35% | </td>
Your Harry Potter Alter Ego Is...?
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| Random Quote time |
[13 Oct 2005|05:07pm] |
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" I can believe things that are true and I can believe things that aren't true and I can believe things where nobody knows if they're true or not. I can believe in Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny and Marilyn Monroe and the Beatles and Elvis and Mister Ed.
Listen--I believe that people are perfectible, that knowledge is infinite, that the world is run by secret banking cartels and is visited by aliens on a regular basis, nice ones that look like wrinkledy lemurs and bad ones who mutilate cattle and want our water and our women.
I believe that the future sucks and I believe that the future rocks and I believe that one day White Buffalo Woman is going to come back and kick everyone's ass. I believe that all men are just overgrown boys with deep problems communicating and that the decline in good sex in America is coincident with the decline of drive-in movie theaters from state to state.
I believe that all politicians are unprincipled crooks and I still believe that they are better than the alternative. I believe that California is going to sink into the sea when the big one comes, while Florida is going to dissolve into madness and alligators and toxic waste. I believe that antibacterial soap is destroying our resistance to dirt and disease so that one day we'll all be wiped out by the common cold like the Martians in War of the Worlds.
I believe that the greatest poets of the last century were Edith Witsell and Don Marquis, that jade is dried dragon sperm, and that thousands of years ago in a former life I was a one-armed Siberian shaman.
I believe that mankind's destiny lies in the stars. I believe that candy really did taste better when I was a kid, that it's aerodynamically impossible for a bumblebee to fly, that light is a wave and a particle, that there's a cat in a box somewhere who's alive and dead at the same time (although if they don't ever open the box to feed it it'll eventually just be two different kinds of dead), and that there are stars in the universe billions of years older than the universe itself.
I believe in a personal god who cares about me and worries and oversees everything I do. I believe in an impersonal god who set the universe in motion and went off to hang with her girlfriends and doesn't even know that I'm alive. I believe in an empty and godless universe of causal chaos, background noise, and sheer blind luck.
I believe that anyone who says that sex is overrated just hasn't done it properly. I believe that anyone who claims to know what's going on will lie about the little things too. I believe in absolute honesty and sensible social lies. I believe in a woman's right to choose, a baby's right to live, that while all human life is sacred there's nothing wrong with the death penalty if you can trust the legal system implicitly, and that no one but a moron would ever trust the legal system.
I believe that life is a game, that life is a cruel joke, and that life is what happens when you're alive and that you might as well lie back and enjoy it."
--Samantha Black-Crow, in "American Gods" by Neil Gaiman.
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I think that pretty much covers it.
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| Ok..... |
[04 Oct 2005|01:58am] |
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Okay, back from panicking.
The upshot of the night:
He took so bloody long to reply because his computer crashed mid reply, and he spent the next five minutes apologizing profusely for leaving me hanging and consoling me that I hadn't done anything wrong.
Then....absolutely nothing changed.
The hope had been, I'll bring it up, it'll get sorted out, I'll either have a rejection or clarification and I can deal with that. But....no. He's still celibacy boy, and he still refuses to comment on whether or not he's interested in me. The night degenerated into a bit conversation of me verbally kicking his ass because he's incapable of taking his own advice and he values the lives of complete strangers over his own well-being. I told him that being noble is just an excuse to hide your self-loathing, and we verbally sparred for another hour or so.
So we're back exactly where we were.
He still refuses to get into a relationship because of his feelings of inadequacy.
He's still sending strong "i like you" signals.
Our friendship hasn't been interrupted or hurt in the slightest.
And, most annoying of all, as big of a PAIN IN MY ASS as he is...I can't help but love him just a little bit more at the end of the night. He's like a hopelessly addicting puzzle, one you can never solve but is too damn fun to put down, and I've always been a sucker for puzzles. The eternal mystery and frustration that is his brain is like a big beacon of comfort and challenge and adoration for me.
So...er....how do I count this? Was this a win? A lose? A draw? Fuck if I know.
I'm gonna count it as a win. If nothing else, it's all out in the open enough, and I'm comfortable enough with it, that I know we can continue talking about it. I've never been so good with subtlety. Maybe I'll make more headway with logic.
If nothing else, I can be as big of a pain in his ass as he is in mine.
Because I have the sinking suspicion he loves it every bit as much as I do.
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